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Hi all, it’s me *tries to smile*

you probably know that my sister is now married right? GOOD FOR HER *claps*

I'm going through a very strange time of my life, my style is changing, conflicting, I’m very confused about things, things I cannot tell you, so don't ask...please.

I just needed to write and get it out of my system though, since this is my blog I should be able to do that here right?

I'm very f***ed up right now, total mess, nothing BAD has happened...wait screw that...first off my friends dad is F***ing asshole! I’m P-off right now at him; he's just driving his kid away.

You can only protect someone so much before you drown them, chicks have to leave the nest to learn to fly, they may fall the first few times and you will be there to pick them up. while they were in your nest you will do your best to teach them HOW to fly, but once they take that first step all you can do is watch and encourage, and ask God to give them enough wind to stay up until they can do it one their own.

If you don't let them leave, their wings will be too week and when the wind pushes your beloved nest form the branches your chick will not know how to fly...and it will be your fault for keeping them from learning.

That is my rant to him.




so I dyed my hair black, like, four weeks ago, it wasn’t permanent, came out in like four days but I LOVED it. it made me feels pretty, more grown up. but the first thing my mom and dad say to me is, well as long as you don't turn into a witch...like WTF? I DYED MY HAIR and they said that...O_o talk about sudden loss of warm-happy-fealings to your parents.

Man you'd think I was some bipolar fifteen year old...but no I’m one messed up twenty-year old who's parents have suddenly decided she is trying to become a wikkan. that really broke my heart to hear them say that. I don’t think I’ve forgiven them yet.

Mom just asked my help to clean the basement, but she doesn't ask, she tells me...

I PAY rent, I buy all my own food, I keep my messes to my areas, I clean up when she asks, BUT PLEASE can we have the weekends OFF???? most of the money I work all day everyday to gain is given to you, do I have to give my off work hours too? I GUESS SO.

I could just get up and leave, I could go to the mall, and I could go for a walk. but what happens when I come back and she demanded my help and I wasn't there, how will I be treated? YOUR TWENTY year old daughter who could practically have a place on her own with the kind of money she gives you, but has been told that you would rather she stay at home until she's married.

sure you have raised me and I know I should be grateful; I should be willing to help like your other perfect daughter, news flash she felt like your slave too.

Sorry I don’t have much love for anyone right now, especially not myself...but maybe it’s actually too much love for myself that is the problem?

I am so f***ing messed up right now